MY JOURNEY - HOW IT ALL STARTED

I ventured to India solo to join a group of Russian speaking yogis 5 years ago in April. 

I had just gone through a breakup, which spearheaded my healing journey & self discovery process & hence my unexpected trip to India....

I have never really shared my story. So here it is. I feel compelled to share more of who I am & how I got to my coaching career & to coaching mostly men.

Almost 5 years ago I worked in real estate management, but I wasn’t fully satisfied with. It paid the bills, & that was good enough. I was in relationship with a man who I thought I was going to marry & have kids with. I had very little knowledge & awareness of who I truly was. We partied, drank a bottle of wine a day, & I smoked back then. I did not live fully in my power, I didn’t have a voice, I felt insecure & jealous when he was out on work trips. I didn’t feel seen or heard or understood & my little girl was running the show every time I hit PMS. Most of the time I lived in victimhood.

I even got myself into NYU to study real estate development, as I thought that was what I needed to do to prove to myself I was worthy.

What kept me somewhat sane was my work with a women’s wellness coach at the time, which I began because I couldn’t handle my emotions & thought that I needed to change my diet to feel better.

What I later realized was that all the emotional turmoil, PMS, insecure & depressive thoughts started showing up when I got off birth control, on which I had been for 5 years. So my body was now resetting to my “original”, my real range of all types of emotions & sensations, for which my nervous system wasn’t ready at all.

I had no idea I was that sensitive and I had no idea that “my realness”, my ability to feel the whole spectrum of emotions was so deep. When I met with my “bad” emotions I was literally going crazy. So I found myself naturally drawn to spirituality, which opened up to me through my yoga practice at the time - chanting, meditations, yoga teacher’s prophecies. All of that helped me stay sane.

When I broke up with my ex, the world of Tantra yoga opened up to me. I had no idea what it was, other than - it had something to do with sexuality & spirituality. At the time I was open to absorbing everything in the realm of healing modalities. I just really wanted to be better, to never again be heartbroken, to never again be cheated on, to live my truth, be in my power, in my full sexual sovereignty & have a voice to speak up.

On a subconscious level, deep down inside, I have always yearned for deeper intimacy & connection with my partners, but had never fully experienced it with anyone.

When I learned the principles of tantric philosophy, I was amazed how all that I was feeling, but didn’t know how to ask for, made so much sense all of a sudden.

I delved deep into Tantra teachings & began my healing work. With Tantra came all sorts of experiences, both amazing & challenging, that required lots of awareness, self reflection & again healing. Along the way, I read a ton of self help books, worked with a number of mentors & spiritual teachers, did a bunch of workshops, all so I could have the tools to help me thrive, live my full potential, be in my power, feel safe in my body, be whole, alive, orgasmic & dictate the rules of my own life!

I became a Certified Tantra educator, held workshops in NYC on Tantra, & had a private healing/coaching practice as a Dakini, working with men, women & couples. With that my learning & healing work deepened further.

My one-year training with my most astonishing Tantra teacher Layla Martin, helped me move even deeper into who I truly was. How returning to LOVE & most importantly self-love was the truest remedy of all.

And with that my mission in the world became clearer. It is: Helping men connect to their feminine side, their receptive part, their emotions, empowering them to live from their power, their truth, their authentic selves by healing sexuality.

That is what the world is starving for & what I subconsciously picked up from the collective consciousness. That is why I was carried into the role of a Priestess, healer & a coach for men.

If someone told me 4,5 years ago that I would be writing this post on social media, I would have skeptically laughed at them in disbelief.

Sometimes, I ask myself how the hell I got this life. It’s definitely not the easiest, I can tell you that for sure, but I can also tell you with full confidence - I feel more alive than I’ve ever have, more free, more powerful, more joyous, I feel the full spectrum of emotions & absolutely love it.

I am honored to help people in the most sacred, deepest & vulnerable areas of their lives, & if that is not living to the fullest, I don’t know what is.

Much Love, Iryna