A Moment of Feminine Creation

Hey there,

I have been so "full" this past month, full as filled up, stuffed like a puffer fish with other people's ideas, concepts, my own stories, guilt, judgment, fear, anger, grief, comparisons, criticism, and so on and so forth. 

And my body, being as sensitive as she is, started to purge. All of the above created so much tension in my body that she began to release. Release like in good old days through tears and shaking. (I haven't had this since I got pregnant). 

A woman's body naturally just can't be filled at all times. She must release to be empty for a new creation to take place. 

And so these cathartic moments would happen randomly. At a yoga class, or early in the morning when I am still in bed but awake, or even when I would just lie down to rest for 10 min. She would purge and purge. 

I am also in the lutéal phase of my cycle, which is the inner fall, the time when everything is slowly "dying," emptying out, shedding. 

And I give space for it to take place. 

This morning, my beloved and I had a beautiful, intimate, connected time after not being connected for a very long time. 

We started hugging and talking, and I noticed I was annoyed and irritated with one of our family members. I was in judgment. I expressed it to my beloved, and he said, "Iryna, my love, why do you fill your heart with so much judgment? You have such a beautiful, loving heart." 

I burst into tears. Layers of judgment started to wash off with my tears. 

My body opened a bit more, but not yet fully. Just enough to receive him Intimately, as I thought in my mind. 

He began touching my body, kissing me softly, and I was still deeply in my head. It didn't feel right; his touch didn't feel right. It was too much, too soon, too overpowering. I felt armored and prickly like a porcupine. And another deeper layer of tears washed over me. I cried and cried and cried. While he was kissing me, kissing my face, my heart, my whole body. I was softening more and more, allowing what felt like ten layers of armor to shed. 

The next moment, I looked at my beloved, and I saw a strong, beautiful, loving man. I looked at him with so much admiration and love. Our hearts were connected. We laughed. He cleaned my face of tears and mascara and said with so much adoration, "My little weepy raccoon is back." 

 

We both laughed and hugged and talked. Deep, profound creation and wisdom emerged between us and filled us both. The space that we created. It was so potent, so precious, it's ours. It doesn't look like anyone else's creation. And that is the magic I, as a woman, must cherish in our union. 

The next moment, I want to feel more of him; every cell of my body is receptive, soft, penetrable. 

We made love. It was so sweet. 
 

We were lying in embrace, so innocent, so connected, so much in love again. At that moment, I didn't want to flee; I wanted to be by his side; I wanted to be a part of his vision, and my heart grew with so much love and respect for my beloved. 

I felt grounded, open, grateful, and filled up now with OUR creation. Creation for what we desire to emanate out into this world together. 

If this piece inspired you, I am delighted. 

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Much love and gratitude,

Iryna